Tuesday 3 February 2015

Relationships

Teenage relationships are so complicated. I don't mean just boyfriend/girlfriend ones, friendships too. It's like once you finish school you start to only see people who you make an effort with, you don't just see them everyday in class. It's been a little hard for me to get used to this concept.  I've questioned who will stay and who will drift away. Even those ones that don't initially drift away, I wonder will they still be around in ten years or even five years. Although of course I love and hope that all my friends will be around me for many years to come, the teenage years are just so confusing and uncertain. I'm sure the people I pick as my bridesmaids today will be different to the ones I choose when the time comes. 
 Friendships are complicated as a teenager, but actual loving relationships are way more intense yet confusing. Being in a completely committed loving relationship as a seventeen year old is one of the most amazing, yet scariest experiences of my life. It makes me so happy to think about the fact that one day I may be able to tell people my husband and I were 'childhood sweethearts'. Its such a reassuring feeling to be able to openly discuss marriage, babies and growing old with my seventeen year old boyfriend. Although also intimidating and somewhat scary. Its intimidating to me that I may have found my person, the person I will spend the rest of my life with. That I may be making a massive decision for my future as a seventeen year old. What scares me the most is that we will either get married... or break up. I really hope it will be marriage, because I'm in way too deep for us to break up. 
 Bye for now
  Jordyn xx

Tuesday 13 January 2015

Life Update

I haven't posted in a while, I would love to say that I have a really good reason for not posting, but I do not. To be honest I have just simply been enjoying this time, I have no set schedule (although I have been waking up at ten past nine most days) each day and I do whatever I want, when I want to. I have been loving spending time with friends, relaxing, going to the beach and just in general building great relationships with all the people around me. Last year was the most hectic year of my life and I have just so badly needed this chill time. So much has changed in my life and this year is like a complete fresh start. Ooo I got my school results and can get into whichever university I decide on. 
  I never got to talk about leavers. I explained it a little in another post but basically leavers is a week for Australian school leavers to party. Five friends and I rented a house in down south, right in the heart of the partying. It was the perfect leavers house, close to the beach, close to the town and most importantly close to the bus stop which took us to the raves. The raves were not how I had expected, it was basically a fenced off area in a dirty paddock. There were DJ's, dancing, rides and lots of people. It was so much fun, four nights of partying away all the struggles we had just been through. Im not going to lie and say that there wasn't times when I had to rip some of my friends hair out, but through it all I believe that most of us have strengthened our relationships so much. We went through the good, bad and the ugly together and now our friendships are stronger than ever. 
 Right now I am still just living the chilled life, going shopping and basking in the glowing Australian sun. Although I know this bliss will end, eventually I'm going to have to go to uni and get back into the real world. Im not sure I'm ready for that as I still have no idea what I see myself doing with my life, but for now my plan is to just keep enjoying this amazing life i'm living. 

Bye for now
 Jordyn xx

Growing and learning...

So it may sound like a very obvious statement, but as we grow up so many things change around us. Many of these changes we never would have thought would change. It has been send a million times over but the teenage years, I believe, are truly one of the biggest times of growth and change in a person's life. We go to high school, get a little more freedom, make new friends and lose old ones and lets not even get int all the crazy places we grow hair and fat on our bodies. The one thing that does stay the same and which definitely has in mine, is the relentless love and support of our families through all the scary changes. 
 As a seventeen year old girl I can definitely say that my relationship with my mother hasn't always been the easiest and it will never be perfect. We will constantly clash (as we are so alike), although now after going through all the horrors of puberty and hormone changes I appreciate everything my mother has and will do for me. I have been a complete little b*tch to her at times, but through it all she has always had faith that I would grow to become a good person, in which I believe I am becoming. My mum is seriously my best friend and now I feel comfortable talking to her about anything. The biggest thing that this turbulent, hormonal roller coaster of a relationship has taught me is that MUMS KNOW BEST. 
 As teenagers we sometimes forget that our parents have already been through all the mean teachers, horrible peers and fake friends. Seriously our mothers are equipped more than anyone to give us advice on anything from friend problems to school issues. I have had to learn this the hard way. For example, two of my friends my mum has never liked, she always said she couldn't trust them and that she thought they were not good people for me to be around. These girls were my absolute closest friends, so as a typical teenager I ignored what my mum said and remained very close with them. It wasn't until things got busy and hard in my life that I realised these girls were not actually true friends to me, my mother was right... To make her even more right the girls she had liked and I had always seen as my second friends, were actually the ones that stuck by me and to this day are still my closest and most trusted friends. This is just one of the many times that I hate to admit but I should have listened more to my mum...

Bye for now
 Jordyn xx

Thursday 20 November 2014

FREEDOM

Yes, I am finally finished my exams! In 9 days I will be graduating high school and hopefully never be going back there (at least not until my younger brother graduates). It is a complete feeling of freedom, I can sleep in as long as I like, stay up as late as my heavy eyelids will let me and fill my days doing whatever I want.
 Before graduation though, we have leavers. Im not sure if every country has this or if its just an Australian thing. But leavers is a time to let loose and finally relax and have a break from the extremely crazy, stressful and hectic year that we've had. A house full of my friends, close to the beach and where i'm sure many memories will be made. It is a time that i'm sure I will never forget. Although 6 girls living in a house together i'm sure will not go completely smoothly, especially with alcohol put into the mix. Here's hoping for an amazing week of bonding, freedom and completely letting loose from all the pressures we've felt throughout this whirlwind of a school year.

Bye for Now
  Jordyn xx

Tuesday 18 November 2014

Wonders of Friendship

Since finishing school, friends have been a massive topic of conversation, who you'll stay friends with, who you'll lose and if you'll make new friends wherever you end up next year. Friends are a weird concept. You choose people to spend time with and generally they want to spend time with you too, but what happens when friendship is one sided? Generally if love is one sided nothing will ever come of the relationship, but if a friendship is one sided that person will do everything that they can do to keep the friendship alive.
 Although some friends I feel as though you grow to like, you didn't necessarily pick them. For example my group of friends from primary school. I picked them as a seven year old, or was more or less forced to be friends with them. After 10 years of friendship we are closer than ever, although I didn't choose them to be my friends as the people they are today and i'm sure they didn't pick me as the person I am today. As i'm sure that over the past 10 years we may have changed a little. So now its as though we've just grown and learnt to accept and love each other. This is the same way family relationships grow. We typically did not pick our family, but we love them anyway.
 Even some of my other closest friends are people I have become close to through other people that i'm no longer even friends with. I would never have chose them on my own to be my friends, but I have now grown to love them. The more that I think about it the more I realise that those people I did choose to be friends with, I am no longer friends with.
 Friendship is a weird and wonderful thing. I will never understand it nor will I try. I'll just do my best to build positive, healthy relationships, not try to force anything and be open to all new people as friends.

Bye for Now
  Jordyn xx

Friday 14 November 2014

The World Is My Oyster

I know its a really cheesy and cliche thing to say but 'the world is my oyster' is something that is really beginning to sink in to me. As I've now finished school, I'm really starting to realise how different things will be next year and I am so excited for it.
 Firstly once I graduate I'm hoping on getting a brand new job, as I'm completely sick of working at the gross store I currently work at. As i wont be going to school, I will have more time to work. This is going to mean a lot of extra money. I'm so excited to not have to stress so much about money and to have my own money rather than relying on my parents as much as I do. This is going to change a lot of things for me.
 I mentioned in my previous post that I have lots of plans to travel and experience the world. This is something that is so important to me as it is something that my parents were not really able to do. A couple months ago on a family trip to New Zealand, I was bored out of my brains after we had been driving for well over 5 hours. I wrote down a bucket list of places i wanted to see, but this wasn't just any bucket list, i even wrote the specific ages that I wanted to see them at and it goes like this...

Okay so before I turn 19 I would like to...
< go on a girls camping trip (my friends and I have talked about this soo many times)
< go to coral bay (which is a beautiful ocean side town about 12 hours north of Perth)
< go on a Bali trip (which I am doing in April with my boyfriend and his family)
< go to Melbourne and/or Sydney with the girls

I have always loved this since I first saw it on tumblr, it has inspired me in many ways. 
Follow my tumblr blog waanderlust to see more of what inspires me.

The next place on my list is Europe, between 19 and 21 I want to explore all that Europe has to offer. I want to do all the touristy sight seeing, while also immersing myself in the European culture and lifestyle. I want to go shopping in Milan, have a champagne breakfast in Paris, go yachting in Greece and have scones for morning tea in London.
 Another place I would love to go at this time is South America. I want to experience the 2016 Olympic games which will be held in Brazil. Go to all the parties that surround the opening ceremony and just make memories to last a lifetime.

At the age of 21 I would love to explore all the the US has to offer. I would absolu
tely love to spend my 21st birthday in New York City with all of my closest friends. I want to explore Los Angeles, San Francisco, Las Vegas, Texas...and the many more interesting places that are in such a massive country. Maybe on the way home we could stop by Hawaii for some more chill time.

By 22 i would have hopefully finished a uni degree, so will most probably have a proper, full-time job (that is if i ever decide what I want that job to be). There are not many places left at this point where I want to go, maybe if I save up enough I could go to Africa and do a safari. I would love to see that part of the world, especially as it is completely different from Australia.

I know that it is unlikely that I will do all these trips at all these times, but I think its important to at least set some sort of goals. Having all these plans for the future is what is forcing me to save right now. I don't have anything in particular to save for at this moment, I always just say I'm saving for the future. That future that I've been saving for for so long, is so close to becoming my present. These dreams I've had from such a young are just about to become a reality. I have no idea what the universe has in store for me in the years ahead, but right now I feel as though 'the world is my oyster'.

Bye for now
 Jordyn xx

Wednesday 12 November 2014

Welcome!!!

I thought it would be appropriate for my first post be just a quick little get to know me and my reasons for starting this blog. At this point I'm not exactly sure how this whole thing is going to work out but I'm hoping that it will be good for me to get all the things running through my head out and put them into words.
  Okay so my name is Jordyn (yes my mother gave her daughter a boys name) and I'm currently seventeen years old. My life has been absolutely crazy at the moment, you wouldn't even believe all the stuff that's going on. I have recently finished high school and I'm just about to sit my final exam (we call them WACE where I'm from). I plan on going to university next year, some would say I'm rather intelligent. Although I have all these amazing plans of travelling, experiencing all the world has to offer me and having a successful career. I have absolutely no idea what that successful career is. 
  I did not enjoy high school. Yes I made some great friends, I got to build relationships with some amazing teachers and have some unforgettable memories, but I did not enjoy it. I love to learn new things, although that wasn't what school is about anymore, its about who has the best memory... and I have the absolute worst memory. Although the hardest part is that now I don't see myself doing anything else but going to school. When i think about my future of course I picture all these amazing things, but I'm just so unsure about the career path I will take. This feeling of uncertainty is a horrible feeling to have. 
 I'm at a point of crossroad in my life, what I choose now could set me up for the rest of my life. It scares the hell out me but also excites me. No one really knows what the future could hold and I guess I'm just going to roll with whatever the universe throws at me. 

Bye for now
 Jordyn xx